Under His Wings, you will find refuge.

Under His Wings, you will find refuge.

Friday, August 27, 2010

To God be the Glory...great things He hath done :D

Today I am 8 days post CCSVI Liberation Procedure and I cannot tell you how thrilled I am at my overall progress! All Glory, Praise and Honor goes to my Creator, my Savior, my friend, my hero: Jesus Christ

I cannot believe the incredible healing that has taken place in my body in such a short amount of time. After so many years of such suffering, I am excited about life and wake up with a BIG SMILE on my face each day. I don't have to endure the tremendous pain, and fatigue that have been my constant companion these past 12 1/2 years. I can wake up knowing that I will have the energy to do something simple like take a shower, and not have it wipe me out for the day. And I can take a shower standing up! Yippee! And I can put my own shoes on, another Yippee! Thank you Jesus :)

I can go out with friends and enjoy a casual dinner, without paying for it the next 2 or 3 days. I can do some inconsequential things around the house like laundry, or washing the dishes, or just picking up clothes and putting them away, in one day - not in three days!

These may seem like mundane tasks to you, but tasks like this would take me hours and hours, and often, I would have to space them out like this: my goal today is unloading the dishwasher and cleaning up the kitchen and then I'll lay down for a couple of hours. I'll take a shower and then that's it for the day. Tomorrow, my goal is to fold those 3 loads of laundry and put them away. Whoppee! Then the next day, my goal was to hang up my husband clean shirts and pants.And so on and so on.

I would go on the computer for an hour or so, but would have to lay down because my head was pounding and my neuropathic pain all over my body was so intense, especially in my legs I just couldn't sit there for one more minute. These blog posts I was doing, were literally taking me days to do each one. I enjoyed doing them, but never could I do them in one day, or I would pay for it, for days and days. I was determined to do them, because I knew that God was going to be honored, somehow and someway.

This has been my life, especially over the last 3 years, as MS has taken over my life. It has been a drag, but I think I got used to it and figured, this was my lot in life, so I was going to have to make the best of it. I've always been a glass is half full kinda girl, and I wasn't going to let MS beat me-- no way!I was determined to look up in the midst of my suffering, knowing that God, in His time would deliver me.

Then, along comes a simple 90 minute angioplasty surgery called CCSVI. It's only been 8 days since my surgery, but now have the energy and the cognitive power abilities to dream about the future! Can I possibly drive again? Or maybe go back to work part time? Or help other people fulfill their dreams! Be able to enjoy with my family and possible future grandchildren. My head is bursting with the possibilities that are set before me. It has almost been too much for me to take in in such a short amount of time, but I am taking it in, and I am claiming it and I am thanking the Lord for everything!

I can look forward to and plan events for the first time in a long time, knowing I will have the energy to actually accomplish them. It's like God has opened up the world for me, after so much time. I feel like a butterfly coming out of a cocoon. Ready to spread my wings and fly for the Lord!

This is such an answered prayer, friends. I have had so many people, friends and family, praying for my healing for many, many years and God has answered those prayers! He is Faithful :) I know there is still lot of work to do on my part. I know I have much physical therapy to be done, to bring me back to full strength.I know I will have down times, cause I still have MS. But I have hope now, God has begun my healing and the possibilities are endless :)

Please Lord, continue your healing, so I can bring Glory and Honor to you, my Healer and my Lord, Jesus. Thank you to everyone who has been praying for me these past years. Thank you for hanging on, thank you for not giving up, thank you for believing and knowing that in His time, God was going to heal me, and He has!! All Praise goes to Him! I have claimed my miracle and it has come true! Thank you Jesus!

My verse for today is one of my favorites from Psalm 91:14-16

"Because he loves me, says the Lord, I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. He will call upon me, and I will answer him. I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him. With long life will I satisfy him, and show him my salvation."

My prayer for today:

Holy Lord, Jesus my Savior,

Thank you for this blessed healing. Thank you for answering my prayers and the prayers of many. Lord, give me the strength and courage I need each day to move forward with this new life you have bestowed upon me. Help me to look to you each new day as I always do, for your strength. Help me to proclaim your name to the mountain tops O Lord, my redeemer and my salvation.

In Jesus Name I pray,
Amen





















Tuesday, August 24, 2010

God answers dreams in His perfect time...

Do you have a dream? Something you have been longing for, for many years? Something you thought was unattainable and totally out of reach? It could be anything. It may be simple as more time with your family after a long work day, or maybe it's a bit more challenging like a new, more fulfilling job, a bigger house, or a better relationship with your spouse. Then there are the really big dreams, like mine, which has been asking God for healing from a chronic progressive and disabling disease.

My dream for the past 12 1/2 years was for God to deliver me from this MS that has been slowly taken over my life, especially the past 3 years. MS is a chronic, progressive and debilitating disease. I knew that when I was diagnosed back in 1998 but I never fully realized the extent of what it could do to you until things began really going downhill for me in late 2007. Then I fell in February '08, and had to begin using a small tri - walker. Within 6 months I had another unfortunate accident on a golf cart with my son and tore the left ball right out of my rotater cuff. That really set me back for at least 6 months and put me into a heavier 4 wheeled walker. Although I've completely recovered physically from that little incident, I don't think the rest of my body had gotten the message yet cause I have really been moving slower and slower these past 3 years.

Then along comes something called CCSVI. In February, my son Biff had mentioned something about it to me in February when we were visiting my very ill father in TN. I put it in the back of my mind because I had to focus on Dad and the MS Walk coming up at the end of March, but I remembered the name of the  pioneer who discovered it: Dr. Zamboni, just like the ice resurfacing machine. I won't forget that I thought, and I didn't.

As I began my months long inquiry into CCSVI, I quickly discovered that not only was it a scientific discovery of monumental proportions, it was also an amazing love story. Well, I've always loved loved stories and this one has a terrific ending. Dr. Zamboni's wife has MS and as he watched her suffer, he just couldn't stand by and see her continue to go downhill. He began his own personal quest to look at MS outside the box and see if it be caused by something different. He discovered that in 100% of the patients he tested, every one of them had decreased blood flow from their brain. He also discovered that a simple angioplasty procedure to open up blocked jugular veins, improved symptoms of the disease dramatically! In my opinion Dr. Zamboni should get the Pulitzer price for medicine, because this is such a radical and revolutionary discovery and it is turning the MS world on it's head! 

Is it a God-thing? I believe it is. I believe with all my heart that CCSVI is the miracle that so many of us with MS have prayed for, for so many, many years,

I had the procedure done last Thursday. This is Tuesday, and I am greatly improved. My right side which has always been weaker, is now stronger. I am able to put my own shoes on, which may seem like a small thing to you, but to me and my husband it is HUGE. I can lift my right leg into bed without having to pull in it to bed. I can get up out of a chair quickly and like a normal person, which I haven't be able to do in years. I am able to walk again with my tri-walker and hope to be able to be back on a cane after I do a few months of  physical therapy. After all, I have to retrain myself how to walk now. And, even though I'm using my small walker, I'm walking like a normal person, bending me knees, which I haven't been able to do in years. My fatigue level has been greatly reduced and now I can stay up for 5 to 6 hours instead of the normal 2-3 hours and then falling down from exhaustion. I am expect that to get better as well! Thank you Jesus~~

I still have my neuropathic pain, but it slightly decreased and it is changing. I am dreaming again for the first time in years. My speech is better, I feel the cognitive fog lifting and I'm thinking more clearly and more quickly. All these things may seem pretty insignificant to you, but if you have MS these are the little things you do everyday that are taken away from you, slowly but surely, year after year as the disease progresses. Having some of those back with the hope of more and more coming down the road is definitely a God-thing. A Praise the Lord thing - a Thank you Jesus thing. A Praise Report to the Utmost! I am rejoicing in that now, my suffering is coming to an end. I am expecting a total miracle and complete healing from my CCSVI surgery.

So, CCSVI is my miracle, sent straight from God, through a passionate doctor named Paulo Zamboni. I am thanking the Lord for the many blessings I continue to receive. I have always tried to give the Lord the Praise in all situations, good and bad, but even I have to admit that in the past years, it has seemed like more and more of them appeared to be bad.

But our God is forever Faithful. When you honor Him, He does come through, in HIS PERFECT TIME, not ours. Our job is to keep praying, keep obeying, keep looking up to Him for our answers. Hang in there friends~~God always delivers, In His timing, He will answer.

My verse for today is from 1 Peter 1:1

" In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you have to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith--of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire--may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed."

My prayer for today:

Oh dear Lord, God of this universe,

Thank you so much Lord for Dr. Arslan, and my successful CCSVI surgery last Thursday. Thank you for answering prayers. I do Praise you Jesus for Dr. Zamboni, I do praise you for these brave doctors who are pushing the boundaries to help those of us suffering with this terrible disease. Thank you for giving me your strength to get me through many tough times living with MS. I pray that you will give your strength to everyone who is suffering with this and all diseases Lord. Be with them Lord. Open the doors of their heart so they may feel the peace and love that only you can bring. As always Lord God, You get all the Honor and all the Praise and all the Glory.

In Jesus Name I pray,
Amen