Tuesday, June 28, 2016

Thanking,Contemplating and Waiting....

As I sit down here and write in my blog for the first time in a while, it looks like the world is once again rocked by Islamic extremism. The pace is picking up. It seems like every other week there is some new terrorist attack worldwide. It is so hard to see the suffering that these zealots cause intentionally, just because they want to end their own lives and prove a point in the name of their "Allah." Our world is falling apart right in front of us. The only comfort is in knowing that it is all pre-ordained because Scripture talks about the end times and the destruction that will occur.

2 Timothy 3: 1-5 tells us "But understand this, that in the last days there will come times of difficulty. For people will be lovers of self, lovers of money, proud, arrogant, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, heartless, unappeasable, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not loving good, treacherous, reckless, swollen with conceit, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God, having the appearance of godliness, but denying its power. Avoid such people."

I wanted to write here in my familiar blog because I have been tremendously frustrated myself of late. But it seems in light of things happening in the world, that my frustrations should take a back seat. 

As I mentioned before in my blog writings, I started writing a book based on how God has helped me and supplied my needs through the daily challenges of living with MS. He put this dream on my heart a while ago, and I kept putting off beginning the process of writing it.

A dear friend of mine sent me a wonderful book "The Dream Seed...God's Blue Print Within You." by Clarence Dalrymple which helped jump start the process. I knew the book was definitely a God-thing, because I knew He was talking to me again, saying ......just get going Nicki, just do it. 

So, I have begun and have about 5 chapters written. But I've been having increasing cognitive challenges of late. I just can't seem to put my thoughts down in the correct order. If you've ever had cognitive problems you will know what I'm talking about. If not, it's kinda like you know what you want to say but can't seem to get the words put together correctly----at least in some kind of timely order. The task of continuing to move forward at this point seems absolutely overwhelming to me.  

Feeling a bit defeated I began reading the book my friend sent to me again and I am so glad I did because it helped me refocus and relax a bit. One of the excerpts that really helped was 

" Sometimes we get frustrated because we are trying to force things to happen according to our timetable. Sometimes we hold onto things too tightly. But when we are finally willing to let go, that's when God can bring them to pass. If you choose to release that frustration and not let it become the center of your attention, but instead use that same time and energy to thank God that He's directing your steps, then you open the door for God to give you the desires of your heart. Remember God already knows what we want and what we need. He's the One who puts those desires in us. We shouldn't be consumed by trying to make things happen. Instead a greater act of faith is to be happy where you are right now. You have to stay open and trust God, because he as a good plan in store for your future."

Another passage that spoke to me was this one . 

"If God gave you a vision, a spiritual hope or a dream for your future, there will be an appointed time when that which God spoke comes to pass. Thus, the Lord assures us " Write the vision and make it plain on tablets, that he may run who read it. For the vision is yet for an appointed time. but at the end it will speak and will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it ,because it will surely come. It will not tarry. (Hab. 2:2-3)

I have written my book vision down right above my computer and will keep it there until the vision comes to pass! I will trust the Lord and his perfect timing.

Wow, I felt a big sigh of relief when I read those passages.  I will be able to finish this book when God gives me the cognitive ability to move forward. There is no shame. I don't need to push it. The only one putting a timetable on me, is ME! I can go at my own pace. The Lord will make it happen when it is supposed to happen. Not to worry, this is so very minor in the scheme of things. 

There is so much going on in the world and the prayer needs are great for so many and my family needs my continued prayers. 

We have so much to be thankful for and that is where I need my focus to be. God has been by the side of our family these past 7 months guiding our steps each and every day. We sold our Sarasota house for exactly what we wanted and the deal was cash. My husband successfully went back to Sarasota, packed up our house,storing it in pods and returned unharmed but exhausted after a two week absence. We have this beautiful North Carolina home to come to while we wait for Him and his timing as far as my husband's future career opportunities. We have the funds to be able to live here with no problem until that happens. That in itself is a God-Thing. 



When I look at all the Lord has done for us of late, that in itself is astounding. He is so faithful and true. Help me Jesus to focus on You and not on the terrible things that are happening in this world. Help me to take the focus off of my problems because I know that you are the one in charge of it all. Help my vision to come to pass in your perfect timing.



My verses for today are above in red.
My prayer for today:

Heavenly Father,

We need you! We are failing miserably as a society. There are so many that are hurting in this world. 
Give them your peace. Take the hatred out of the hearts of those who seek to harm innocent people. Open the eyes of those in our world who cannot see the truth of what is going on against our country and the world. Take the blinders off of them so they may see Your truth.




















Amen and Amen